Wednesday, November 7, 2012

Week 1 in Tennessee!


Mom! Oh Mom I miss you so much and dad and everyone. I have so much to say I hope I can get it all out in the time that I have. First of all I LOVE my coat and hat and gloves and my comforter is so comfortable. My mattress here Is really nice and I have slept better in TN then I ever did in the MTC, I am working harder too so I bet that has something to do with it. I loved the fun picture you sent it made me smile and I put it right by my bed. The Assistant to the President came up to me the first day I arrived and said, Sister Oldham you have received more packages today then I have my whole mission, you must be loved. I am loved and I feel it. Thank you mom. Oh also as for sending letters just send them to the mission home, they like you to do that and then they forward the letters and packages to me, if you can send all packages through US mail and not like ups or fedex or something they say that works best so they can just forward things immediatly. But I dont need anything right now so dont worry about sending any packages.

My first area is called Clarksville 3. Clarksville is really big and there are 5 sets of missionaries serving in this one town! There are 4 wards and one spanish branch. My companion and I are the only sisters in our district and it is wonderful. The Elders treat us with so much respect and love. Oh did I tell you we are WHITEWASHING THE AREA! Do you know what that means! That means she is new to this area, just as new as I am. Sister Vandenberg is her name. She is from Roy, UT and has been out 6 months. This is her fourth area already. She is short and really outgoing and spunky. She listens to all my questions and lets me talk about my feelings. She is a Tomboy and gives like these huge hugs I just love her. She is really patient with me and lets me ask questions all the time. She is super obedient in everything she does and I love that because I know that I can trust her.

Missionary work is so different than I imagined. You dont go tracting all day long! I thought I would be teaching like a lesson a day and then be knocking doors all day, nope! Not here atleast. We spent most the first week getting to know members and less actives. The last sisters that were here set us up perfectly. We began teaching their investigators they were teaching so we got a few lessons in their. This ward is amazing and we get fed every single night. The families are so much and crazy and let me tell you Tennessee sure has character! Half of the ward and Clarksville are here for Military, we are right by a base, and then the other half of Clarksville is so southern. Some pretty poor areas but these people are great. We will be teaching a lesson or saying a prayer and when they hear something they love or agree with, just in the middle of your prayer they will say, "Amen, Thank you Jesus." They Love Jesus Christ and really know Him.

My favorite southern thing I have heard so far is from an investigator named Greg. He has been investigating the church for a year now. I am not sure what we are going to do with him because he likes to make jokes a lot, which is great but I want to bring him closer to Christ, I need to, that's my job! He cant get past Joseph Smith so we are going to really work on that with him this week when we see him. But anyway, we are outside on his front lawn and he got off about his dogs and then he said, "Everybody needs a cat to kick. Ya'll have any cats to kick?" True story. 

The first day I got here I was SOOOO overwhelmed. My companion is amazing so she would really try to help me. We ate dinner at a members and they have 3 kids, they both served missions and are from Arizona and are here for military. Their kids were hilarious and crazy and so it made me feel right at home. But we had a couple investigator lessons and they all were falling through. It was my first day and we hadn't taught any investigators. I then felt inspired to knock on a certain door around an investigator who didn't answers house, so we did and guess what! They didn't even open the door, they just talked through us through the door and said they were busy! I walked a way really happy, which was weird, I was sad they didn't want my message but I realized that even though I was going to have to do hard things I knew the Lord was going to help me and I knew He wanted me to knock on the door just to see if I would follow His spirit!

Another day we were sitting in a baptist parking lot trying to locate where a less active member lived and this jolly skinny man walks by our car, my companion turns to me and says, "We need to give him a Book of Mormon." She then busted up laughing because she said I all the sudden looked like I was going to barf. So we tried to find our Book of Mormon but were so frazzled that he was already half way down the street. We didn't think chasing him down would be appropriate so we got back in the car. Then I see him come back so I tell her, she jumps out of the car and says, "Hey can we give you a gift?" She is so enthusiastic its great. We then give him Book of Mormon and our number and explained it a little. We try to get his name but he tells us that too many women already have his name. Oh he also had GOLD TEETH with letters imprinted on them. Probably his initials, idk. Seriously these people are just so cool it's unreal. 

Our ward has a lot of inactives and so we are going to be focusing a lot of our efforts on building the kingdom. Our ward mission leader and his wife are amazing, both RMs and really young and have so much enthusiasm. It's going to take a lot of effort, but together we are going to really try and boost activity in the ward and get a family mission plan for each of the families. I also feel a great stress to involve the youth. I am really excited when I talk about it!

Mom this work is hard, it really is. But the best part is the Lord is with me. Whenever I get discouraged, or afraid, or I lack charity, I close my eyes and picture my Savior. He was the PERFECT teacher and people still rejected him. Are they going to reject me, absolutely. But that is okay because I am about His work and He has promised to help me. I picture what He would do if He were ministering and helping the people I am working with, every time I do I am immediately lifted! He loves me so much and I am coming to know Him so quickly and in ways I had not imagined. He is so close to me and I need Him, I physically, emotionally and spiritually CANNOT do this work without Him. But with Him I can witness miracles, with Him I have witnessed miracles. I have felt love for His children through me. I cannot believe He has chosen me to help Him in His work! My Heavenly Father will use me as a tool. 
AHHHH so little time, okay this is the story that will top off the cake! And it isn't just a story, it is real!!!!!  My companion and I went to the assisted living home to visit a Brother on our agenda. We assumed it was a member because we couldn't find any information on him. When we got there we found out he isn't a member and the other sisters had given him a Book of Mormon last week. So we discussed it with him and he said he felt so much peace. His name is Castudaryl, he is 54 and lost his legs in Vietnam. He is African American and the sweetest guy. We taught him about Joseph Smith and bore testiomony of the Book of Mormon, then I invited him to be baptized and he said yes!!!!!! It was a soft commitment but still! He was moving to Texas today so we didnt have much time with him so sadly we wont see him out till the end but this is the amazing part. We got him to come to Sacrament yesterday and we visited him last night. He said that he told his friends about Joseph Smith and the Book of Mormon and we were able to share a Book of Mormon with a friend of his. He got our addresses and told us first thing he will do when he gets to texas is find the church and then write us each a letter. He said we touched his heart forever and told us to always remain true. He called this morning and left a message and said he is going to be baptized in 3 weeks because we said he had to go to church a few times before he gets baptized. I will love than man forever! He also said that he knew he would see us again and that we were his sisters in the gospel! It was amazing! The miracle I knew would happen.

Oh my heavens I cant believe that story is mine but it is! I am so excited to see what the Lord has in store this week! I Love Him so much. I invite everyone to pray and ask for a stronger testimony of the power of the Book of Mormon. It is our bridge to our Savior and tells how we can get home to our Heavenly Father!

Oh Mom I love you so much! I love Mitch and Holly and Keltzie and Gen and Blake and Madison and Dad too!

Love Sister Oldham

Week 2 in the MTC!


Hi! Mom I just got an email from my Mission president and there were 13 baptisms in our mission on Saturday. I dont know how that compares with other missions but this made me so excited!

 Yesterday at 6:15 I was woken up by the most awful noise. the fire alarm. So all the girls in my building were filed out to the lawn. All of us in either pajamas or bath robes. It was just a dust mite in the system but we had to stay in the gym until 7:00 which made us have a late start to our day but all was well and it was on adventure. My Korean roommates were like what is going on! It was kind of funny. They left today and I gave one some candy I received from Barb and she started to cry and told me she loved me. These were the sweetest girls, I will miss them. I think that means we get new roommates this week! I just want to hold them when they get here and tell them that everything will work out okay because Heavens yes it does.

Saturday was the hardest day so far. We taught Dom (one of our fake investigators who happens to be our teacher) and it went so well, we had the spirit, asked good questions, kept it simple, made it apply to him. Brother Martin gave us some minor feedback but overall we felt really good. sO I am all on top of the world thinking, wow I am really getting this stuff. When we go to class and I forget it all. WE had a mini speed teaching lesson where our whole district got to teach a section of lesson 3, the gospel of Jesus Christ, we all thought we did well when after our teacher informed us that we didn't apply it to the investigator, we did almost all of the talking, and we didn't let the doctrines sink in. Then he has us each teach as companions to either him, another teacher or another companionship. So Brother Martin came over to have me and Sister Obando teach him. She was really frusterated because here English was struggling that day and I was frusterated by the fact that I felt we did so good in our earlier lesson, then in a moment of pressure I forget everything I had just learned. So Brother Martin sits down and says teach me about Baptism then invite me to be baptized, we start teaching him and he stops us in the middle of the lesson and said wait you havent even asked me a question. So he says think for a minute about a question that can involve me in the lesson then we will try again. I know I am not describing my emotions but at this point I just want to throw something and burst into tears. So I cover my face as I think and start look at Sister Obando she mouths, "I want to go the wash and cry." The wash is the bathroom and that is where we go to talk about our feelings and cry after we are frusterated. But we couldnt because Brother Martin is still waiting to be taught. He then sees that we are at cracking point (ps he is my age, he just returned from his mission in IReland/Scotland in may) and he tries to comfort us and tell us to not be frusterated but you know me, that isnt going to work. He asked us about our feelings, which I loved, and I explained that I was frusterated that I wasn't perfect at it yet. Yep I actually said that.He told me that I need to be patient and practice. He reminded me of talk by Elder Holland who said that we are to be our first convert. He said that the Lord could do this work without me, He doesn't need me. But he is using me so He can make me into something. It is going to take time, a lot of time but If I allow the Lord to mold me He will make me into something great. I know this is true. I know that the Lord is overall. I am reminded that He does accept my try, even in the MTC, even when I am supposed to be a missionary and think about others, the Lord needs me to take care of myself. He needs me to do my best to be my best and He will do the rest.

A HUGE AHA moment I had was on Monday when Brother Starkey are other teacher had us imagine if someone we look up to was took out of our lives, I thought of Mallory and my heart was so made. Brother Starkey even said that I looked like I made kill him and he was scared. Then he said, you need to fill that same way about the Book of Mormon. I realized I didn't. I have read the Book of Mormon every day for as long as I can remember. I have a testimony of it, I understand its importance, I have received answers from it, but I realized that wasn't enough. We talked some more and wow it was amazing. Let me see if I can share my thoughts. The Book of Mormon is another testament of Jesus Christ right? That is its whole purpose is to bring us to Christ. I know Christ lives, I know it with my whole heart but do I know Christ. The Book of Mormon is our bridge to our Savior. {Prayer is how I have made my bond with my Father in Heaven and this Book is how I need to make my Bond with my Savior and Redeemer. I need to feel beyond upset by the thought of the Book of Mormon being taken out of my life because it is my Link to Him who died for me. So this week I have taken time to read the Book of Mormon for myself everyday. I am not sure why the Lord is being so merciful on me but He is and I already feel my self coming to know Christ more than I ever have before. I open up the pages and read about Nephi and I feel Christ coming towards me. He is the way, the Truth and the life and the only way back to our Father in Heaven. He is the Savior and Redeemer of the World and I need to do all I can to know Him because He is the most important person I could ever know. As I come to know Him I feel my heart being purified, I feel my safe changing. Mom I literally feel God changing me. I feel Him shaping me, molding me, making me into a better, stronger tool.

This week after listening to an Elder Holland talk I have decided that I am no longer striving to be the best missionary I can be, but rather the best Servant of God that I can be, because that never changes. When I take off my tag I am still a servant of God. I have 18 months to serve my Father in Heaven in this capacity and I WILL NEVER GET THAT BACK. I have to lay everything on the table, I  have to learn how to give him my whole heart, my whole mind, my whole strength and might (D&C 4:2). This mission will change me.I am not the same person I was 2 weeks ago and I hope to never be. I can never go back. I have promised him my everything and I am learning how to do that. I am scared, so scared to go to Nashville in one week but my Father in HEaven has promised to hold my hand as I go. this is His work and I should not be scared. I am inviting people to come unto their Savior, their Best Friend to Be, the person that change everything for them What is scary about that!? Nothing. Faith not fear.

I am out of time but I love you so much. I got a package from Laura and Barb and the cookies from you and I gave them to my ZL's and they lvoed it. Thank you for everything. Tell Maddi I love her, and Gentry I love her, and Blake, and Keltzie and mitch and Holly and daddy.

Love Sister Oldham